back to the blog after sometime
i wanted to blog about the 260908
but i still havent got the pictures
brenda, cs, azimah, jy, tin tin, xy, banana!!!
where's my pictures!!!
i want them too!!!
anyway thanks to them for having this celebration for me.
went to fish and co at amk :)
loves
thanks to michelle, mj, sean, joshua, jinyan, junli and jesslyn for the day before that celebration
thanks to them my class knew of my birthday -.-
visuals on that i dont have though
but atleast i got off on any prank from them
pauline, su and jade tried to give me a bath after work on saturday
but i only got half wet
try again next year girls
though you did stink up my bag, SUSANTI!
loves to all
back if i get more visuals

i'm in a terrible mood now
i feel like shit
i'm sweating like shit
my mouth feels awful
my stomach acid is getting stronger
my head hurts
i'm in a terrible mood now

my gums are swollen
i cant open my mouth
i cant eat much
i got a swollen cheek
i have so many darn cravings
all someone can say is tolerate, you can do it

wondered if i made a right choice caring
as usual
i'm hidden in the dark
sometimes somethings are not worth caring
yet i cant be that person
what the hell
i'm such a crappy loser
somethings are not meant to be found out

disappointed
seems like that's all there is
whatever
so be it

zoee
life
you know what is the worse thing to do?
lie and get caught
that's like the dumbest thing anyone should do
lying or hiding the truth is already bad enough
but i guess you're only dumb enough to lie to me and get caught
i'm just wondering if i'm a failure to my name
or i support my name all too well
zoe is life in some language
cant remember which though
yet i'm either not full of life
or i'm the living example of how sucky life is

there is no responsibility in friends
you all proved it well
i'll take that advice

thursday's nugget fever
wasnt much of a nugget fever
had mcspicy meal instead
oh well
slack at the playground with the group
after that went home
anyway worked through the weekends
and today is mid autumn festival
and guess what
i'm not playing my candles again
that's like twice in 2 years already
dang

zD aint feeling good

Just because someone from your past is suddenly back on the scene
doesn't mean that you are going to have the exact same kind of relationship with them
that you once had.
People change --
for better and for worse,
so do yourself a favor
and treat this person almost like a stranger.
Give them the benefit of the doubt
and make no assumptions about what they will do or say next. Keep your mind open, and you will be rewarded with a pleasant surprise.

so true
and that will be it.

phew
i was so scared i lost my access here
the words kept on repeating on my screen
the email you type does not exist
omg right?
anyway what went on yesterday
i shall not say much
coz you can read it from everyone who went there
haha
i lazy to redo what people would blog about
it's 2 am now
i'm working in 7.5 hours
dont expect too much
haha

i did some things
that might seem stupid to others
i dont agree with what i did was right
nor do i agree with what i did was wrong
but it was all out of my free will
i finally made up my mind on things
things that i knew
but tried to hide
to you
you do not deserve to scold brenda
you want to say something
say it all out to me
in english
if you cant do that
dont bother talking to me about this
since it is none of your business
to the rest
half of you guys expected me to do it or have done it long ago
half of you were surprised
most of you were worried
thanks
really
it means a lot to me
it's not about bottling up
it's just about facing some issues
and it just hit me yesterday
whether i was physically fit a not
that if i hadnt done what i did yesterday
i wouldnt be able to crawl out like i did now
and being able to come out
with the help of friends is easier to recover
then still being in the pit trying to hold onto the rope
that friends have prepared for me from the surface
thanks
atleast from today i can go out freely
and really say that i have tried my best
and through my journey
i've found people who truly care for me
thank you
all of you
the road to recovery isnt easy
but i know i have support all the way
thanks